I'm been listening to Miley Cyrus' song '7 things'. Like since 30 minutes ago...

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care and now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

YOU MAKE ME LOVE YOU

Don't get me wrong, he's not cheating on me. But other than that, most of the lyrics are TRUE.

Orenji nano chromatic, GETZ! XD

Yup. I went to the mall today with my aunt and bought this orange thingy. Ahh~ I'm so excited and happy XD It was playing Hanamuke PV when I took the picture. It's pretty slim.

Oh yeah. I nearly lose my cell phone. The story is... I was going to the toilet and was holding my cell phone. Because I can't hold it anymore, I placed my cell phone on the tissue box instead put it into my bag. And when I leave, I FORGOT TO TAKE IT.

So when we were walking around, I realized that I forgot about it. So I rushed back again as fast as I can. Luckily, thank God. There're still good people in this world. The cleaning service hold it back for me. OMG~ Thank God. I was thanking that person like hell.

Phew.

Minutes after midnight.

I'M SUPER BORED.

Owh yeah. News about w-inds. 25th single. It will be in 3 versions. (Oh please don't be like Johnnys or DBSK selling so many versions TT^TT) I will be broke to death. The 1st version is with Everyday PV, 2nd version with Can't get back PV, and then regular version.

Oops, before that, there're 2 main songs in this single. Maybe because this is the first single for this year so they put 2 main songs which called 'Everyday' and 'Can't get back'. So there... 3 versions. *dies*

Since my money is not that much to buy three of them, or even two. I decided to choose which one between these 2 songs that I like. If I like 'Everyday' I will buy the version with 'Everyday' PV in it. And same goes to 'Can't get back'.

They sang those songs in their final tour last 23rd September. Geez, lucky fans to listen to it for the first time. And... I forgot to mention that Ryuichi got injured when they was rehearsal for the final show. But he's recovering now and did a great job in the concert.

GOOD JOB, Ryuichi-kun!

Hoammm..

FINALLY HOLIDAY!!! XD

Yes. I will have 2 weeks holiday starting tomorrow. I'm going to Bandung next Wednesday! XD Fei-chan~ You got the news? XP

And... There's this bug... I don't know what its called in English. But it really likes to bugging around lights. So I found this annoying bug IN MY ROOM O_O *dies*

I HATE BUGS!

Seriously and there're so MANY of them. I was freaking out so I called the maid to take care of it. Damn it. Just where did it come from?! >_<;;

Happy b'day to Shinya~!!!

My head hurts =_= I had pretty much headache before too. I wonder if this because my month period will be coming soon. Argh~ I forgot when is my last period. X_x

My univ life is good so far. I will have a test for Japanese next Thursday. Wish me luck!

I miss mommy and daddy TT^TT

I want this orange thingy! It's the new iPod nano chromatic. It suits my orange JBL speaker too XD

Anyone knows where I can watch Shugo Chara episode 48 with subs online?

I can't find any in Youtube TT^TT Yeah, I've been addicted to this anime. My favourite character is Hoshina Utau which cast by Nana Mizuki. I love Nana's songs Meikyuu Butterfly and Black Diamond. And now I'm listening to it.

I'm staying home the whole day today. I planned to watch a movie with my boyfriend tomorrow. I haven't watch Hell Boy =_=+

Net Friday I will have holiday until October 10th. I planned to go to Bandung with my cousin. Can't wait for it!

I bought this frame yesterday XP I really need some stuff to decorate this plain room.

Okay. The continuation of my last post about my aunt. Last night when she came back from work, she called me to her room. I know I will get another lecture again. But unexpectectly, she's nice. She said she appreaciate my honesty. But she's still not agree about me going to a boy's place alone.

She said she will allow me to hang out with friends and my boyfriend every week. Just don't go to a boy's place alone. Oh well, as long as I can still hang out.

Really, staying at home is really boring. Tomorrow I have no class.

I'm digging my own grave.

How? Well, the story is last Monday I went to my boyfriend's dormitory. My class started at 1pm and I got nothing to do at home. And since my boyfriend also doesn't have class that day. So I went there to play.

So this morning before I go to my campus, my aunt asked me where I was last Monday I answered her boldly I went to my boyfriend's dormitory. Then she went like, "You went to a boy's dormitory all alone?!"

Well, I told my mother about it and she's completely okay with it. And I will feel really bad if I lie to my aunt. So I just tell her the truth. But I didn't expect her to react like that. She called my mom and said I shouldn't go to a boy's place alone. How will people react if they see that?

I mean, hello... I'm trying to be honest okay. I'm telling her the truth, not a lie. Why can't she appreciate that? Besides, can't she have any faith? It's not like we do anything wrong. I understand completely how to protect myself. *sigh*

I got lectured several times by my grandmother too. I can't stand it but I should. This morning I also got lectured. It's really damn annoying since it's still morning.

I just want to always be able to talk to him. So whenever and wherever, I always want to know what he is doing. It's not that I'm afraid him to cheat on me. No that's not it. I just want to always hear everything from him.

But is he feeling that way towards me too? Is it bother him a lot? I feel lonely easily when he's not around. We've been in a long distance relationship before. It's difficult for us to see each other. And now we're in the same city, we also difficult to meet at each other too.

I want to be always by his side. So then he won't take his eyes away from me.

Well, maybe I'm not that good person at all. *sigh*

I feel jealous to my own boyfriend and friends. So jealous of how free they are. Why are my parents so overprotective and not letting me stay on my own? I spent today in this room, sitting in front of my laptop, reading manga... I'm super bored.

My boyfriend is going out with his friends now. And tomorrow, maybe he's going to the amusement park too if we don't go out. Haih... If only I didn't live here, I must be the one who is going out with him.

I know it's not his fault. But I feel sad and angry. Why can't I get freedom like everyone else?

I hate this.

Finally, I have my break from univ. These 3 days I've been woke up at 5. And tomorrow I can sleep more! Well even though just until 9. Because my grandma will start to 'sing' if I wake up more than 9. *sigh*

I WANT TO WATCH HELL BOY! *bloody cries* Seriously, I really can't endure to live here. I want to watch a movie with my friends and boyfriend. Please just let me hang out once a week. TT^TT *kneel down*

I'm really jealous to see all my friends. They can freely go everywhere they want. *sigh* As for me, I have to get the permission from my grandma and my aunt. Then borrow aunt's car and her driver. And whenever my aunt calls me, I have to go home that instant.

Oh God... Please grant me a pass to go out once a week. TT^TT

*sigh* I hate this.

This is the 3rd day of my life in univ. So far, I had Nihon Go class, Japanese people and Japanese culture class, and Kaiwa to Chokai (Conversation and Listening) class. I love all the lecturers! They really know how to rule a class to laugh, seriously. Unlike the one with Character Building. Dammit. =_=+

Owh yeah~ Thanks to ruu-chan for the idea of Persian cat! *huggles* You ROCK girl! XD

Today's class, Kaiwa to Chokai, I had lots of fun. The lecturer is nice and very cool person XD Most of the time we're laughing like hell because of his jokes. We learn how to say Japanese fluently with the dialect.

Tomorrow I have to wake up at 5am and immediately take a shower. It's FREAKING cold! Brrrrrr... Luckily, we have hot water here. *sigh* I caught a flu TT^TT It began with my head hurts. My classes are also so COLD. So I have to bring my jacket or cardigan. But my nose sucks X_x

See the orange thingy? That's my new JBL speaker for iPod. It can be used for laptop or computer too. I want a red one since my laptop is red. But they don't have red. So I took orange.

Tomorrow, dad is coming back. I want to come with him. I want to go home TT^TT

And... My univ just started today. My classmates are good. They didn't do things individualy and very social to each other. At least that's the first impression I got.

I got pissed off. Well, here's the story.

The first class is images of Japan. It's good. I mean the lecturer is nice. And we studied the images of Japan like its culture, archipelago, goverment, etc.

The second lesson is... Character building. Seriously, this lesson is SUPER BORING like HELL. Damn... And it's still the first day, we already got assignment to do. WTF And we have to stay active with the discussion forum that the lecturer make. That is so odd. Damn it.

My classes for today done at 5. But I got home at 7. The traffic is so so SUCKS! *sigh* I hate this. Really. I'm really NOT in a good mood now. =_=+

Die stupid lecturer. DIE.

Ryuichi's new hair in w-inds.m XD I love it <3

This is the 3rd day I'm in Jakarta. I won't be endure living here for sure. The problem is yes again about the freedom and... my grandma. No don't get me wrong. I don't hate her. Really.

The problem is she keep 'splashing' me with tons of advice. I mean... Okay it's normal. But I don't like it. I didn't do anything wrong but she keep telling me this and that. I know I musn't fight her words back but still... I don't know if I can endure it.

*sigh*

I MISS HOME! *bloody cries*

This picture was taken this morning when I woke up. It's the first sun rise I see in Jakarta. *sigh*

I miss my mom. My stupid sister and naughty brother too.

Dad is still here. He will go back home on Tuesday. I wanna go home. TT^TT

I left home. And I just did unpack my things. I'm tired. *sigh*

I'm sad. Seriously, I want to cry now. Mom sent me to the airport, along with my sister, my brother and my aunt. Ohh don't forget my cute lil' niece. I was trying so hard to hold my tears that time. I even didn't say a properly good bye to them. *bloody cries*

I brought my doraemon doll along with me and I was hugging it all the time. Some of the people at the airport were looking at me. I bet they were wondering how old I am. But I don't really care because I was trying so hard to hold my tears until I hugged my Doraemon so tight and bit my lips.

My dad went to the waiting room first. So when I found him, he looked at my face. Looks like he knows that I'm about to cry, but he didn't say anything.

*sigh* Now no freedom for me. I'm so tired. Maybe I should sleep.

I got tagged by Kimmy. lolz.. Thanks for cheering me up ^^ I will give you my dark chocolate lolz

THE SELF
[01] Real name: Felisia
[02] Nickname: Hoshi
[03] Married: nah~
[04] Zodiac Sign: Sagittarius
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 17
[07] High School: Saint Marrie High School
[08] College:Bina Nusantara University
[09] Height: 165cm (from the last time I measured)
[10] Weight: 48
[11] Do you like yourself: hell yeah
[12] Piercings: right ear 6, left ear 3
[13] Right of left: right
[14] Are you a freak: yes~ XD
[15] Hair: Long and curly
[16] Skin: tanned. not really tanned
[17] Allergic: nope
[18] What are you doing now: doing the tag while talking to my mom
[19] What will you doing 1hour later: i don't know.. sleep maybe..
[20] What will you doing 10 years later: idk..

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with mother/father/parents: parents, brother, sister.. but will move soon to continue study TT^TT
[22] Siblings(included you): 3
[23] Eldest: me
[24] Youngest: sister and brother
[25] Love/hate your family: LOVE.

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: yeah
[27] If yes, who is he/she:him~
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: -
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 4 if you count now.
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): 1
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): idk
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: idk..
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: hurting him
[34] Ever argue with your other half: yeah
[35] You with you other half since: march
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: hell i'm straight
[37] Reasons you love your other half: do you need it in words?
[38] You and your other half in which stage: stage?
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: stupid
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: if you ask me if i want to marry now, my answer is NO

THE FRIENDS
[41] Your first best friend: Alvita
[42] Your first enemy: that bitchy
[43] The friend you love the most(1only): alvita~
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): just forget about them
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: idk
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: idk
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: just think about herself, BACKSTABBER, TRAITOR
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: treating a girl like a toy, bullshitting
[49] You fall in love with you close friend before: kinda
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: bitch
[52] If your friend betray you: ohh she's just not a bitch. she's also a slut..
[53] If your friend woo your lover: depends on how my lover's reaction
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: thank you~
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: who said we can't fall in love with our best friend?

THE STUDIES
[56] Are you a good student: i'm good and i'm lazy
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yeah..
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: haven't start my univ
[59] Always late to school/college: in school, i never come late unless i do it on purpose. let's see how i do in univ
[60] Your class: still don't know
[61] You love your seniors: still don't know
[62] Senior who you love the most:---
[63] Your classmates good/bad: i hope they're good
[64] Excellent result classmate: ---
[65] Laziest classmate: ---

THE PEOPLE
[66] Smart people: people who don't think they're the smartest
[67] Stupid people: count me in~
[68] Good looking people: Tachibana Keita!!!
[69] Ugly people: no comment
[70] Funny people: should work as a comedian
[71] Cute people: whatever
[72] Bad people: who doesn't think about others
[73] Honest people: always tell the truth
[74] Acting people: fake
[75] You are what kind of people: i'm just me~

THE PREFER
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: both
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: 50-50
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: my arm is normal so i will choose nice stomach
[81] Listener or talker: both
[82] Romantic or rich: both
[83] Good husband or Good Father: both

THE FUTURE
[84] Age to get marry: 25 ++
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 2, i want twins! one girl and one boy
[86] Career: singer, dancer
[87] Salary: US$100.000/month? lolz
[88] Retirement age: hummm 60
[89] Properties value: never think of it
[90] Wishes: achieve my goal, happiness for me, family, him and everyone, watch w-inds. concert, go to Japan as many times I want

THE VICTIMS
just anyone~

done it, Kimmy! XD

My back hurts. I don't know. Maybe lack of sleep.

The day after tomorrow, I'm going. On Saturday I will go to the campus to take my Binus Card. I asked my boyfriend to accompany me.

I was crying to my mom last night and tell her I really don't want to stay in that house. Actually, my mom is disagree in the first place with me going to Jakarta. But she didn't force me. I didn't expect that I MUST stay in that house. Stupid Dad. TT^TT I want my freedom. *bloody cries*

I'm hungry. Well, I had my lunch like 2 hours ago. But seriously, I'm damn hungry now. Maybe being stressful really need a lots of food. I better not gain more weight. =_=

Now what am I suppose to eat? LOW FAT food please~

That's my hello kitty mouse ^^

Mom is back. lolz. It's good to have her back, really. I miss her alot. Even though she's just away from home like a week. She bought this mochi with green tea in it and it's so tasty. I love green tea. And~ she bought me a white chocolate too.

Pssst Kimmy~ she also bought dark chocolate! Do you want some? XP

3 days more... I feel like crying if I remember it TT^TT And moreover, NO freedom for me. *bangs my head on the wall* *dies*

Ahh~ I promised to post my hello kitty mouse right? Sorry I haven't take a picture of it yet. I will soon, if I remember ^^;

Finally, today is Tuesday. Mom is coming back home. She will arrive at 5 or 6pm I guess. 3days left for me in this town. *sigh*

I haven't copy everything from my computer to my laptop. Pictures, w-inds. stuff, ficcu document, songs, etc etc. AND~ copying all my w-inds. and Lead CDs to my iTunes. Of course I can't bring all the CDs. I only brought several of them. Damn I'm gonna miss them TT^TT I planned to bring some photobooks and DVDs too. Just hope my suitcase will fit all of it.

Yesterday I bought a hello kitty mouse for my laptop. It's so cute. I haven't take the picture of it but I will post it later or on my next entry. If I don't forget. ^^;;