I broke up with my boyfriend. I finally can mention it here. It was one month ago I guess. But I couldn't bring myself to tell people that we broke up. I just couldn't. I don't want to admit that he is not mine anymore.

Yes, it is me who want to break up. And I said those words to him and I know I hurted him so much. I don't want this either. But the situation made me to. This whole Chinese surname thingy just pressured me alot. Seeing him being lectured by his parents about it, is hurting me so much. I couldn't take it anymore. So yeah... He is not mine anymore.

Day by day since the day we broke up. I really couldn't imagine if he's not there for me. We're still in contact and that makes my heart really really happy. I need him. We still meet, text and sometimes call each other. I really thank for his willing for being my best friend.

I can't imagine if one day he dissapears. I can't accept that. I need him.

p.s. I need to get an idea fast for updating my ficcu or else, Naomi and Kiomi are going to kill me. Lol.