everlasting ageha

2009-11-30T22:26:00.002+09:00

LANDS' BANDAGE single arrived today! I'm SO happy! I can't wait to get home when my maid told me the package had arrived this afternoon~ XD

My midterm exam ended last Tuesday. It ended... well. Well, not really =_= I screwed my grammar exam and I already lost ten points just because I mistook the order of the problem. =_=a;; Stupid, yes.

Oh, if you're interested. Here's the package before I open it. It's been covered really carefully XD

2009-11-10T21:24:00.002+09:00

I want this soft colorful cardigan *_* credits : www.rnainc.jp

Midterm exam is already around the corner... starts this Saturday. YES! Exam on Saturday! WTF is that?! ARGH~ *bangs my head on the wall*

I'm kinda stress with all things going around lately. The worst is my best friend's issue. I couldn't believe it until now. Everything changed just because of one day, one night. *sigh* I can't talk about this in here. =_=

I should be studying for Japanese Language Ability Test which is in this December. But I'm lazy.

Oh well, I will just go and watch Jin in Anego.

2009-11-02T22:32:00.002+09:00

Phew. It's been ages for me to update. ^^;;

I've been crazy about Akanishi Jin~ which make me a new KAT-TUN's fan too. I started listening to KAT-TUN when I heard Yamada Ryosuke sang KT's Real Face song XD And I found KT is awesome for music and dance too. Furthermore, Jin is so HAWT. *_*

Jin will be the second idol from JE that caught my attention, which Yamada Ryosuke is the first XD Jin's new movie BANDAGE will be released next year January. Can't wait *dies*

w-inds. is going to release a new single too, called 'New World'. I heard the song and I prefer HYBRID DREAM I guess. Maybe I will start to like it more when the PV is out? Let's just see.

And wow! It's November already and 21 days more, MY BIRTHDAY! I will turn 19 and soon enough... 20! Gah~ I don't want to grow up.

Just for now <3

2009-09-25T23:48:00.002+09:00

Sorry for the hiatus. I don't what to write so yeah~ =P

See the picture above? Sexy Yamada Ryosuke is decorating my laptop's background XD Ahh~ he's too young to be that sexy, but that is THE FACT. He IS sexy. He is the first boy from Jhonny's who can stole my heart. (of course, I still love Keita and w-inds., don't worry =P) He is in the same age as my sister. So young, yet so TALENTED. I love his dance skills ^^

Currently, I'm having 11 days holiday. I'm so BORED and hoping time will flow fast until univ starts. It starts next Monday btw.

Owh yeah~ I trimmed my hair again.. I haven't told? This time it's shorter. Well, here is the picture.

2009-09-06T20:47:00.002+09:00

I'm back... since yesterday. And tomorrow is the first day of new term. I'm happy because I can meet my friends. But I still miss home so much.

Oh well... I have nothing to say though. Until here first.

2009-08-22T16:35:00.002+09:00

Hello there.

Yes I'm still in my hometown. I will back to Jakarta on September 5th, which mean 2 weeks more. I DON'T want to go back. I like my life here WAY much better than there. Well, my univ life is good, really good. I just don't want to go back to that house. Although in the end, I will.

*sigh* I really hope time flows slowly.

2009-07-30T16:26:00.002+09:00

Greetings from my home town.

Home sweet home~ Yes, currently I'm in my hometown. I'm extremely happy, feel like don't want to go back to Jakarta. *sigh* I got to see my family and friends. I got my freedom back. Thanks to the 2 months holiday my university gave.

The result of my final term exam is out. I'm glad I could do my best and got a good result. I can make my parents happy with it.

Talk about love... I managed to forgot about him. I feel sick already when I hear something about him. It's time for me to take a new step.

I will back to Jakarta on September. God, please let the time flow as slow as possible.

Thanks for reading my blog today ^^

2009-06-19T22:55:00.002+09:00

Yesterday was Japanese's Culture lesson... and we made sushi roll!!! The picture above was made by me~ Well, I'm not really like sushi, so I just ate one and gave it all to my friends XD

Final term is COMING! And the first day is Japanese Computer. Need to study... but lazy XD

I'm waiting for my aunt to come home and bring me my green tea latte =)

2009-06-15T23:49:00.002+09:00

Next week, exactly on June 23rd, my final term starts.

Japan's history, that's the subject which I am SO concerning about.

Trying to memorize one chapter over 9, NAO.

God, please help. *tears*

2009-06-14T21:59:00.002+09:00

I'm furios. Well, I'm not allowed to feel that way anyway.

Why? Because I feel furious that this girl bugging MY EX. See the capital words? Yes. I know EXACTLY I have NO right to feel that way. Couldn't help but I did, and I do right NAO.

Don't tell me to just move on. It's not as easy as you think. The situation I am in right now, is kinda impossible for me to move on.

Need to calm down myself.

P.S. I should study kanji since tomorrow I have a kanji test. Dammit.

2009-06-14T00:01:00.002+09:00

KITA~ The Keita produced bracelet came! Along with the photo set~ Yep, it's goodies from w-inds. Fan Club Event THE PREMIUM! Ureshii~

Kyou wa tanoshikatta desu~ I went to my friend's house and we have lots of fun. We were also talking about our youth times in Junior High and High School~ Totemo tanoshikatta desu yo~ XP

Ahh~ Almost forgot.

HAPPY B'DAY, FURUYA KEITA!

2009-05-29T22:49:00.000+09:00

I GOT NOTHING TO DO AND I'M DAMN BORED.

2009-05-25T14:50:00.002+09:00

This is how my Poupee look for today. Tachibana Keita is LOVE~ XP

I skipped class for today. I don't feel like wanna go today. Plus with the stupid lecturer. But I should be holding my kanji book soon. I need to review the lesson for my final term exam. My final term exam will be on June 23rd until July 6th~

After that~ HOLIDAY! I have 2 months holiday until September 7th. And will be coming home on July 12nd. Can't wait to see my family, cousins, and friends~ =)

2009-05-15T20:30:00.002+09:00

I dyed my hair today. Blue black. I always wanna have a VERY black hair.. and that's the result ^^ I LOVE IT~

Keita has been talking about muscles in his blog~ And he posted this picture in his blog of him wearing SKINS. He has been wearing it for jogging. Ahh~ Keita, let me come to jog with you XP
And his body is... SEXY! *_* I wanna see that six pack of yours, please? *dies*

2009-05-11T18:19:00.001+09:00

I know someone spits me on my face. I know he's humiliating me. I know that I'm NOT important to him now. I know I'm just nothing to him. I know EXACTLY he's ON PURPOSE hurting me.

But oh God, please... Let him realize I couldn't leave him. It will hurt me more.

2009-05-11T17:42:00.002+09:00

No Kanji class for today.

I'm half happy and half annoyed there's no class today. Half hapy side, it's because I don't need to see the stupid lecturer. Half annoyed side is, I'm DAMN bored. I would rather go to univ and when the classes are done, I could go to my friend's house.

Thanks to you, stupid lecturer.

2009-05-11T00:18:00.002+09:00

I need to update, but don't really know what to type.

My father went back home today. Oh yes, after my sister, my father came to visit me last Thursday. He also got some business here as well. So first was my mom, second was my sister, and third was my father. It's really good to see them. The only one I haven't seen since last February is my lil' brother.

Okay, bye.

2009-04-17T16:41:00.002+09:00

No class for today~ means... stay at home. I've been busy studying since this morning I woke up. I have 2 tests on Monday which are History of Japan and People of Japan. Both of it are theories, means... I have to have a big capacity of memory in my brain to memorize all of it. (-w-)a;;

Since tomorrow my sister will come to visit me for one week, I'm sure I won't study. So I'm studying now. Midterm exam is coming on 23rd April.

This picture I took just now before I write this entry. I was texting with a friend of mine. Yeah I got those rolls on my hair XD

2009-04-13T15:19:00.001+09:00

Yes, I'm so stupid. I should have not care about him.

I'm stupid. Call me an idiot from now on.

2009-04-12T22:38:00.002+09:00

I didn't get any good night sleep these days. I've been thinking about him so much.

I keep telling myself, don't worry. You'll be okay without him. He doesn't even care about you. So why would you think about him? You'll be just fine.

My body hurts when I wake up in the morning. And I woke up few times in the middle of the night, finding myself crying. I realized I'm SO stupid. But I couldn't get a rid of him.

He'll be just fine without me. I know it.

I just know.

2009-04-09T21:31:00.002+09:00

Gosh~ I should stop craving for food with FATNESS. But I want it TT^TT What should I do? I need to have a dance class soon! Fat burning...

I want to shop! I need to shop! LACEY TIGHTS!!! ARGH~

2009-04-06T00:27:00.000+09:00

I WANT LACE TIGHTS!!!

2009-04-03T23:05:00.001+09:00

I gave up my feelings. I broke up with him. I did my best to not wanting him anymore.

Yet... Friends is not allowed too?

2009-04-01T21:38:00.004+09:00

The connection these days had been so fucked up. I felt ANNOYED almost everyday just because of it. Speedy (my connection provider) is SO retarded. =_=;;

The picture above was taken in my Speaking and Listening Class by a classmate. Yes, the one with white tee is me, btw.

w-inds. is going to have a new single this May. This time, they collaborate with BIG BANG's G-Dragon. Honestly, I don't know which one is G-Dragon, lol. I do know about BIG BANG. But I don't know which they are. XD I'm not into Korean, just for your information. The single this time is called "Rain is fallin'". I can't wait for this.

Yesterday I bought the latest episodes of Gossip Girl. God, I'm dying to know how it ends, even though I don't want it to end fast XD

I really like Blair Waldorf. Even she is such a bitch, I love her clothing style. And Leighton Meester is so beautiful.

And...

Happy April's Fool Day!!!

2009-03-29T13:16:00.002+09:00

Like my yesterday's picture? XD

I went to the mall with my ex and friends yesterday. There're 5 of us. It was fun. My aunt and grandma are in my hometown now. So I kinda free from them. Even though my aunt told me to go home at 5 if I go out. =_=a;;

Tomorrow is Monday. No, I don't want to say I hate Monday. It's just that tomorrow is Kanji lesson, which the lecturer is so stupid. =_= I always feel so sleepy. I can't understand a thing she says. Luckily, Kanji can be learn by ourselves so...

To our stupid lecturer, please cure your stupidiot-ness. Thank you.

2009-03-26T23:31:00.002+09:00

I brought bento yesterday to the univ. I'm kinda in "money saving" mode so yeah...

I went to the mall with my ex boyfriend. We watched Dragon Ball Evolution. And ruu-chan~ you are absolutely right! That movie is so... SUCKS! It's REALLY short and the ending is such a rush... *dies* Okay, at least the one who played Goku is kinda cute.

2009-03-16T22:20:00.002+09:00

I'm 47kg until last Thursday. *dies*

I got my month period today... at the univ! Luckily I brought that thing. If not, I will die for sure. And my stomach started to kill me. Luckily, the Kanji test had been canceled by the stupid lecturer. I guess she finally realized how insane she is.

I have class at 7:20 am tomorrow. I have to wake up at 5 X_x Gahh~

2009-03-15T20:53:00.002+09:00

I gained 1kg and now I'm 48!!! My friends said I'm better with 50kg which I think I looked super chubby back in those days. I don't like it. I hate my chubby face sometimes. My stomach puffed up too. I need to do sit ups again. I stopped doing that because I'm lazy. Guess this time, I have no choice but to do it again everyday.

I have Kanji test tomorrow. I hate the new lecturer for this semester. It's not that she's stupid, but her way of teaching is too faster. I didn't even understand a thing she said. And now because of her, I'm lazy to study. *sigh*

It's good. I'm happy today. This morning I went to the salon with my aunt, cream bath my hair and menicure my nails.

2009-03-14T00:32:00.001+09:00

HAPPY 8TH ANNIVERSARY TO w-inds.!!!

2009-03-14T00:06:00.002+09:00

Meet my lil 8 years old cousin. Her name is Alysya. She is such an adoreable and smart kid ^^

*sigh* I started to feel jealous again to my ex boyfriend and friends. I'm jealous of their freedom. I know I should feel grateful of what I've got. But this feeling is keep haunting me.

I don't know how to deal with it. Everytime I feel like that, I keep reminding me to think the positive one, but that feeling still comes to after me.

Someone, help?

2009-03-12T21:40:00.003+09:00

I broke up with my boyfriend. I finally can mention it here. It was one month ago I guess. But I couldn't bring myself to tell people that we broke up. I just couldn't. I don't want to admit that he is not mine anymore.

Yes, it is me who want to break up. And I said those words to him and I know I hurted him so much. I don't want this either. But the situation made me to. This whole Chinese surname thingy just pressured me alot. Seeing him being lectured by his parents about it, is hurting me so much. I couldn't take it anymore. So yeah... He is not mine anymore.

Day by day since the day we broke up. I really couldn't imagine if he's not there for me. We're still in contact and that makes my heart really really happy. I need him. We still meet, text and sometimes call each other. I really thank for his willing for being my best friend.

I can't imagine if one day he dissapears. I can't accept that. I need him.

p.s. I need to get an idea fast for updating my ficcu or else, Naomi and Kiomi are going to kill me. Lol.

2009-03-03T22:02:00.002+09:00

Hi~ It's been a long time since my last entry. Sorry about that.

My university life has started a new term. My final term holiday is also finished too. Mom came to visit me for about one week. We had a lot of fun. And now I miss her. I miss my family back home.

I have to think of something to update my story. Naomi nee-chan and Kiomi are waiting so... I'll have to hurry and think ^^;

But this is all I can say about now. See you soon!

2009-02-04T12:20:00.002+09:00

See this picture? Don't you think Keita looks like a ten years old boy!? And have you ever seen him as CUTE as this!? That HELMET is the key! *nose bleed*

That's how he looks in the keitai dorama he's playing in. I want to watch it TT^TT I watched the preview of the dorama... Ryohei and Ryuichi are also take part of it!!!

And... Family Mart is selling goods for each actors in the dorama and Keita is one of them! His goods is a necklace and phone straps! They sell it for a limited time and cost... 8500 yen *dies* I WANT THIS!!! The charm has his name and 85 (the year he was born).

2009-01-28T21:04:00.001+09:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

Sorry if it's a bit late. I just came back from my hometown. And tomorrow is my final term exam X_x

Need to study now. Bye~

2009-01-20T20:31:00.004+09:00

I got the DVD!!!

Yep~ Last Friday I went to Panda's house to take it XD w-inds. Seventh Ave Tour, Lead Upturn 2008 Feel the Vibes and w-inds. CAN'T GET BACK / Everyday single! XD

Okay the w-inds. one~

I love love LOVE Izayoi no tsuki! Oh yes~ this concert version is much more better than the others! I love the beginning where Ryuichi played the guitar! And the way Keita appeared and started to sing *nose bleed* Second, the dance corner. Oh yes, Keita~ you look DAMN SEXY! And I found it hillarious when he missed to catch the hat (in Yoyogi's one) Ryohei's one... did he wear LV jacket? XD

Other than Izayoi no tsuki, I also like I'm a man, Urban Dance and Boogie Woogie 66. See the shirt Keita's wearing? (see the picture below, credits to : v1n_vanpire)

I swear I saw this t-shirt in ZARA! I don't know if the fashion team bought this t-shirt in ZARA for his costume or not, but I swear it look alike! (apart from that shinny thingy on the scarf though) XD

Okay enough about w-inds.~ we're going for Lead!

Weird but my favourite performance is Step by Step. I know that song suck in the CD and they were singing it like a few years ago when they're still young. I found this song really good when they sang it at the concert XD and the dance moves also good. And of course, dance corner is the part I always waiting for. They never dissapoint me when it comes to dance.

And one more thing~ it's decided that I can go back home this Chinese New Year. XD

2009-01-14T22:13:00.003+09:00

I don't know what to say here. I just feel like wanna write an entry. lol

I began watching Gossip Girl since... yesterday? lol kinda left over. Many people said it's a nice series. That's why I bought the DVD, to kill the time though. Well, Blair Waldorf is pretty. She really fits the role. What is her real name anyway? O_o

My friends keep talking about Chinese New Year. This year's CNY, I won't celebrating it in my hometown like I always do every year. Thanks to my stupid university who setting the term exam on 28th January.

Hah.

p.s. ignore my stupid face.

2009-01-11T03:00:00.001+09:00

I couldn't sleep. Guess what?

Couldn't sleep + sore throat + hunger + headache = COMPLETE suffering.

2009-01-09T12:07:00.003+09:00

Here I am... Just woke up from my nightmare plus headache and sore throat.

I was crying so badly last night, screaming like nuts. What my conclusion is... he wants to break up. But, he doesn't tell. He likes to torment me. Maybe he thinks, if he torment me more, I want to break up with him.

If my conclusion is true, then bring it on. I will endure all of it.

And even though I know I'm right, it doesn't bring me to hate him.

I love him this much.

2009-01-08T19:05:00.002+09:00

I went to look at my freezer and *gasps* OMG they're so many of them! Ice cream! Gosh, I need to hold my hunger of this thingies! Come on, Hoshi! It's all FAT-ness! *dies*

Anyway, I NEED TO GO SHOPPING! I wanna buy clothes, bags, shoes and many more! I'm dying in this room of boredom!

2009-01-06T22:01:00.002+09:00

credits to trishie for this piccu <3

OMG~ Did you see that smile? Keita, you're so gorgeous in that piccu! (go away 'SAMPLE' word! XD)

2009-01-06T00:09:00.001+09:00

First class of the new year was Images of Japan.

And I have a presentation about Tohoku Region next week! *dies*

Off to sleep now, bye~

2009-01-04T21:15:00.002+09:00

Ah. I've been busy with my come back thingy until forgot to mention happy new year properly.

Happy New Year everyone!

Even though it's a bit late ;___;

And wflforums is back! It kinda brighten my day.

I have so many assignments! *dies*

2009-01-04T17:41:00.001+09:00

I'm here now, in this room, alone.

I got here this afternoon at 11. I really not in a good mood now.

I miss my family especially my mom. I miss my friends. *sigh*

I wanna go home.

2009-01-03T01:39:00.002+09:00

I just got time to write here.

Okay. My time in my hometown is almost OVER, which is making me extremely sad right now. *sigh* I really enjoying my holiday here, meeting my family and friends. I'm gonna miss them DAMN much.

I will be back to Jakarta on Sunday.

You know how much I want the time pass by SLOWLY right NAO.

2008-12-22T22:37:00.000+09:00

I'm going back home tomorrow.

2008-12-21T23:43:00.004+09:00

Like my new pencil case? Oh, "Lisya", that's what I called by my family.

I didn't go anywhere today. I'm not really in the mood. So I'm spending my time in this room in front of my laptop... browsing for ROBERT PATTINSON!

I need something to wash my brain so that's it. (Ruu-chan, don't frown when you read this XD)

This guy, Rob... really like to appear terrible with his clothing and hair style. O_o;; But he does look really sexy in Twilight. And I watched again Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire which has him as Cedric Diggory. One thing I don't like from him... smoking =_=;a

He appeared in Tyra Banks Show and Tyra asked him to bite her! And... he DID. Rob, bite me too XD

Okay. I will stop.

2008-12-21T14:13:00.002+09:00

2 days to go... I'm going back to my hometown.

My boyfriend went back before me last Thursday. And now he's kinda busy with his family. I feel kinda left behind, but oh well... He hasn't meet them for long.

But I'm kinda lonely...

All my love problems... I don't want to think about it anymore. It's just making me think some stupid things.

p.s. I have a new hobby now... which is abusing myself.

2008-12-18T00:11:00.002+09:00

- I hate my love life
- No, it's not because of I'm fighting with my boyfriend
- It's just about this stupid chinese surname
- We have the same surname
- and that's why my family and his family said, we ARE family
- I mean like HOW?
- Stupid... it's just a stupid surname.

*sigh*

2008-12-17T21:06:00.000+09:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RYUICHI~

2008-12-16T21:46:00.001+09:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KEITA~

Happy 23rd b'day to you~ Wish all the best for you and w-inds.! Ganbatte always and do your best!

2008-12-11T22:04:00.002+09:00

See the building above? Yup, it's my university XD Binus a.k.a Bina Nusantara desu~ I took this piccu today when I was waiting for the driver to pick me up.

And this is the class where I'm studying XD Sorry if the pictures are too tiny =X

Owari dechu XD

2008-12-08T22:32:00.002+09:00

It's raining today. Well, almost everyday. I need to remember to always bring an umbrella with me.

The picture above is my today's costume~ I went to the mall with my aunties and grandma. I just did a window shopping only since I'm saving my money.

15 more days to go... I'm going back home.

2008-12-07T16:13:00.002+09:00

Is it easy to forget somebody? Well... It's just easy if that person is not the one we love. So what if the person is one of the most we love? And that person's presence means a lot to you. You won't feel lonely when that person is by your side. What if that person isn't?

Being busy with stuff in order to sweep away that person is just running away. What should we do to then?

I even scare to imagine if that person is gone, not being able to pass the difficult time without that person. I know that time will come, sooner or later.

And now the question is... Is that person feel the same way as you do?

Be honest.

2008-12-07T13:54:00.002+09:00

Last Friday when I'm on my way to the campus, the traffic was so suck until like I want to eat my iPod. lol It took 1 hour and 30 minutes for me to arrive =_=a Really, the traffic in Jakarta is REALLY bad. I might become a high-tempered person if it goes like that everyday.

Hummm... I need to cut my nails.

2008-12-01T22:57:00.002+09:00

Starbucks' Ice Green Tea Latte... I'm so drolling for this! XD

Today's topic... Yamada Ryosuke! lol he's the first one from Johnnys Entertainment I have interest in. He's so cute. I really want him to be my little brother. XD I'm watching his new dorama in youtube now. He's so good in acting and dancing *_* Just couldn't believe he's in the same age as my sister.

2008-11-29T22:55:00.002+09:00

Sour Sally's Non Fat Frozen Yogurt... Sugoku YUMMY!!! o(^w^)o with Kiwi fruit and strawberry jam for its topping.

I went to the mall today with my boyfriend. We watched City of Ember (from the creators of The Chronicles of Narnia : Prince Caspian). Uhm well, not a bad movie though. ^^

My grandmother started to annoy me again about my... PILLOW! Yes~ Could you believe that she's complaining about my pillow which I brought from my hometown!? I mean... that pillow, I have been use it since like I was a... well... can't remember when it was exactly. It's just that... I CAN'T SLEEP WITHOUT IT!

She keeps complaining how ugly it is. It's NOT THAT ugly. And it's CLEAN.

I'm getting more and more... FRUSTRATING living in this house.

p.s. 23 days more to go... I'm going back home.

2008-11-28T21:15:00.002+09:00

Carolina Herrera CH perfume. I got this for my boyfriend as b'day purezento! I <3 it, all of it. Its bottle, its smell and it's RED! Hontou ni arigatou ne, Daaring~ XD lol

I posted this picture in poupee too. ^^

I just done watched Gokusen 3 today. The one who was staring Yankumi is CHO SUGOII da yo ne~ Anyone agree? *squeeze*

Also, thanks to all of you who were wishing my b'day ^^ And fEi-chan~ daijoubu desu yo XD

*huggles you all*

p.s. I need MONEY to buy w-inds. Seventh Ave. Live Tour and Lead Feel the Vibes Tour!

2008-11-26T21:05:00.003+09:00

Mini Christmas Tree! I bought this a few days ago. And I put it in my room with w-inds. figure in front of it XD It's like w-inds. Christmas event special.

Yesterday was my mom's b'day. Yes, her b'day just one day after mine. I want to give her something, but I don't know what it is. Plus, I'm kinda broke right now. =_=a

But still, I want to give her something.

Ahh~ my midterm exam ended today. I just hope the result will be good >_<

2008-11-23T22:16:00.002+09:00

Happy b'day to... ME!

I'm back a few hours ago from treating my friends food. My boyfriend was there too. There're seven of us. I thought I would have much fun but unfortunately, I'm not... really. We went to a cafe called Strawberry Cafe.

I was completely ignored by my boyfriend since his two cousins (who are friends of mine to0) were there. I was really pissed until the surprise b'day from the staff of the cafe. They have this service for someone who is celebrating their b'day there.

Suddenly, the lights went off. I already knew there's just something not right. I knew it was coming. So all the staff were dancing (like monkeys) and some disco lights. They were singing happy b'day. I appreciate that, but not until they were singing it INTO my ear. Seriously, I almost deaf.

And I knew it was my boyfriend. I warned him before few times that I don't want any fuss. But that's the result. I got more pissed so I was just silent to him.

After that, we went to the mall. Seeing me like that, being cold to him, my boyfriend IGNORED me. He even split up with his cousins from me and my friends to go to the arcade.

I'm not pissed this time. I'm extremely SAD. Because I thought I could enjoy my b'day with him. And why couldn't he just stay? After he was gone, he didn't even send me a message or call. He promised me to take a purikura with me, but he's gone. And I have to go home at 6, that time it's already 16:30.

Then, I took myself sent him a message. THE ONE who should do it is precisely HIM, am I right? Because I thought I want to take purikura with everyone. And especially with him. But why couldn't he think?

*sigh* I'm not in the mood of studying.

2008-11-22T22:22:00.003+09:00

I keep forgetting about Kimmy's tag. lol gomen ne kimmy!

Here you go~
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1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartmentPizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - HighHouse - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - How awful I've felt
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B -
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain

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Okay this is surely weird XD

2008-11-22T19:03:00.002+09:00

Kitty~ I was eating lunch near my friend's dormitory yesterday and found this kitty sitting beside my feet and looking at me with its puppy eyes (or kitty eyes?) XD

Poor Kitty~

Ahh~ Finally, tomorrow's my b'day. I'm 18 years old starting tomorrow. I'm getting old. lol

2008-11-20T21:47:00.002+09:00

Today's snack, Haagen Dazs Strawberry. It's CHO OISHII!

I'm done watching Koizora which I borrowed from a friend of mine. It's so SAD TT^TT Really, it was a nice dorama. Why Hiro must die?! *bloody cries*

2008-11-19T20:53:00.001+09:00

w-inds. Seventh Ave. Live Tour and Lead Upturn 2008 Feel The Vibes covers are out!

I preordered both already. Can't wait for it. ^^

p.s. Again... I have a HUGE sprue in my mouth TT^TT

2008-11-18T21:07:00.002+09:00

Happy b'day, Riida-san!

When I was showing w-inds. picture to my classmates, they all thought Ryohei is the youngest among the others! And they didn't believe me when I say, he's actually 24 years old.

Our sweet baby face Riida-san! Aww~ Look at the cute face. XD

My Kanji test... SUCCEDED!!!

Yes, I'm studying for 3 hours last night. And I'm so happy I can do it very well. XD And for tomorrow's test, listening and speaking.

p.s. I'm sorry Kimmy. I haven't do the tag you gave to me. I'm just not in the mood now. I will soon ^^

Konbanwa~

2008-11-17T00:37:00.003+09:00

- Laziness attack.
- Tomorrow's exam is Character Building I.
- Which... I don't know what should I study.
- It has nothing to do with Japanese.
- Should I not give a damn?
- I'm full.
- I'm sleepy.
- But I'm kinda scared I can't do the exam well.
- Since I have no idea what it is.
- Oh well...
- Good night!

2008-11-14T20:43:00.002+09:00

Today's lunch~ ONIGIRI dechu! XD

Okay. First day of my midterm exam went smoothly. The presentation was also a success!

p.s. 9 more days to go~ o(^w^)o

2008-11-13T20:19:00.004+09:00

- I'M BORED.
- Woke up at 10, no class for today.
- Tomorrow my midterm exam starts *dies*
- Studying kanji, there're like 80 kanjis I should memorize.
- I must wake at 5 tomorrow morning and leave the house at 6.
- Or else I will late and not allowed to go into the exam room.
- And then re-take the exam next year, BIG NO NO.
- I'm stress.
- I miss mommy and daddy.
- I miss my boyfriend.
- I need to have fun, NO MATTER WHAT.
- Finally, my sister planned to give me her NDS.
- Currently, listening to OLIVIA's song, Rain.
- Oh yes, a japanese song. It's good..
- Freaking bored *rolls on the floor*
- My b'day is just 10 days ahead.
- Realized that my midterm exam is until 27th November.
- Means... I have to study on my b'day.
- Screw it, I can study one day before.
- ...
- I shall take a shower now.

2008-11-12T23:07:00.003+09:00

Sorry for not updating for a while XD Been busy with univ and stuffs.

Last Saturday, my friend Christine came and she stayed here for one night. I was so happy because I don't feel lonely like I always feel. I really became a talkative. We're chatting until late night. Really, it's making me so happy.

Usually, I don't have someone to talk to. I just sit in front of my laptop and online. I really don't like to be in this house. It's so desolate. That's why I really try to not be in this house for like the whole day. I would die. X_x

*sigh* I miss mommy and daddy. I MISS MY HOME.

Last Sunday, I went to Indonesia Japan Expo 2008 with Christine. I met my classmates there too. It's really cool. There're dance competition, stalls, culture, cosplays, traditional performances and many more. I ate takoyaki! XD I also took some picture with cosplay contestants. It was really fun.

Ahh~ Midterm exam is just around the corner. Starts this FRIDAY! I must study. And today I had my second Japanese test. I studied hard last night and hope I will get a good result.

p.s. Forgot to mention, my b'day is just 11 days left. O_O

2008-11-05T21:27:00.003+09:00

I want this XD and esp Keita's model one... It's RED! I <3 RED! XD

Last 2 days I had a quiz. It's Nihon no Bunka (Japanese Culture) lesson. And I got 10/10 XD I'm so extremely happy because I studied hard for it XD I hope I will keep continue my diligent side.

CAN'T WAIT FOR CAN'T GET BACK PV!

p.s. Just what is that clown doing in the PV? I HATE clown. >_<

2008-11-04T23:47:00.002+09:00

OMG OMG!!! Just saw this in Feel the Fate Community (entry posted by chycaai ^^)!

I LOVE HIS HAIR!!! *hugs Keita*

And... Can't Get Back PV was aired in w-inds.M today!!! You can see the screencaps of the PV here

I want to watch the PV ASAP!!! *dies*

2008-11-02T17:49:00.002+09:00

Seriously, I want to go home. I feel sick living in this house. No freedom but boredom.

2008-11-01T22:42:00.002+09:00

Just got back from watching High School Musical 3 with my boyfriend ^^

It's a good ending. But not the best of the 3. I like the second one more XD

Ahh~ Can't Get Back PV will be aired next week in Vision Cast. And~ I WANT TO GO TO THE CHRISTMAS EVENT!!! *bloody cries*

2008-10-31T23:22:00.002+09:00

Look at what I done to my eyes. Well, I'm not that good in make up yet. So this is the result of today's training. I only have blue eyeshadow anyway. I need to buy a white one.

I started to feel sick living in this house. I want FREEDOM. *bloody cries* I miss mommy and daddy too TT^TT Last 27th Oct was Dad's b'day. I'm so sad I'm not there.

*sigh* I'm killing myself desperately.

2008-10-29T23:28:00.003+09:00

Everyday / Can't Get Back cover is OUT!

Well, since I pre ordered the type B with this cover, I put this version cover only ^^; if you want to see the other version covers, please click here XD credits to : chycaai

Currently, I've been busy with my assignment which for my mid term exam as well. I must write essay minimal 15 pages about Fukuoka's tourism. Oh well since it's Keita's hometown I will do it with pleasure. Woops... pretend you didn't hear that (or read XD)

Ganbarimasu!

2008-10-26T21:55:00.002+09:00

I'm BROKE O_O

I should save for w-inds. Seventh Ave. Live tour, w-inds. Everyday/ Can't Get Back single and Lead Upturn 2008!!! *dies*

There're so many things I bought this week included, my new tartan shirt, new dress, new eyeliner, blush on brush and eyeliner pencil sharpener. O_O

I should save. *sits on the corner*

And about my hair... some of it has turned to ORANGE O_O And it hasn't been one month. Well, yes I wash my hair once a day. But it shouldn't be like that right? especially it's NOT even one month!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

2008-10-22T21:14:00.002+09:00

My boyfriend gave this frame for me the other day XD He knows I need more frames to put all my photos with him and my friends. It's a omiyage from him from Bandung. He went there las weekend with his friends. He also gave me a cute chopsticks with a cute case and a book for kanji exercise.

I WANT BLACKBERRY BOLD. *dies*

2008-10-22T15:29:00.002+09:00

I'm not strong enough to let myself get away from being hurt. It really hurts inside here. I know it. But I didn't even bare to move away and leave it. I'm so scared for being alone.

I want to be with him, that's for sure. But it's hurting me as well.

I'm tired.

2008-10-21T21:16:00.002+09:00

Keita said he did cut his hair and did a image change in his blog entry 2 days ago. I've been wondering how is the result. And here it is!

I like it but it's not my favourite. It's not bad. He should try more new hair styles XD

and again... HAPPY B'DAY TO KIMMY~ XD

2008-10-21T18:21:00.000+09:00

Happy b'day, Kimmy~

Wish you all the best XD

*huggles*

2008-10-19T23:35:00.002+09:00

My boyfriend took this when we were dating last Friday. See my red streak high light? XD

I'm playing a new online game called Web Kare. It's kinda amusing. But it's all in Japanese, so I didn't really understand it all. I began to feel bored to play poupee. I just do the dress up everyday and then I closed it.

I bought Popteen October issue today at Kinokuniya. So happy when I see it at the shelf. I've been waiting for it. I'm looking forward for their make up lessons. I just watched a video in YouTube about how to apply eyeliner. Applying eyeliner is the most difficult part for me especially liquid liner.

But I need to buy it first since I left mine back home XD

2008-10-18T22:40:00.003+09:00

I miss the puppies back home~ Bunkichi and Monkichi. TT^TT Uwahhh~ I wonder how big they are now.

You see, I think I shouldn't rely on someone so much. No no, I mean not using them. When that person is gone even just for a while, you will feel empty. Dammit. I had tried not to but I couldn't. I tried my best really. I never expect that person's influence will be this big towards me.

I wonder if that person feels the same.

I knew there're so many doubts inside me. But I really hope it's not true.
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I have a HUGE sprue inside my mouth. Ouch! >_<

2008-10-17T00:44:00.002+09:00

Green Tea Truffle. I love this chocolate to death! XD Yup. It's white chocolate with green tea filled in it. It's so... OISHII!

I just started my univ and then HOLIDAY AGAIN! There's a job expo in my campus so that's why we got holiday for 3 days from Monday to Wednesday. Since I don't have class for Friday and Saturday, I got 5 days holiday XD

My study is been very good so far. The lecturers are nice, well not all of them. But I like our Nihon Go sensei! XD She's such a fancy person. No no, I mean not in the way she dressed, but her personality. She always make us laugh so it's very fun.

2008-10-15T21:12:00.002+09:00

Finally~! Red streaks high light... MY HAIR!

Yup. I done it today. Right after I finished my classes for today, I went to the salon and did this to my hair XD Well, I did say I want purple in my previous entry but... because my hair is originally black, purple won't do except I bleach my hair.

No I don't want my hair to be bleached. It's not good for hair. So decided... RED!

Come to think of it, red IS my favourite color.

2008-10-13T23:09:00.002+09:00

My univ started today after 2 weeks holiday. Luckily, I don't have morning class. But I do tomorrow. =_= and I have to wake up at 5.

Damn. I should sleep soon. Or else I will be so sleepy.

Anyway, see the picture above? Strawberry Cheese Cake da yo! It's so... YUMMY! Looking at the strawberries makes me... UWAH~ Ichigo! Ichigo! XD

2008-10-12T21:29:00.002+09:00

Fortunately, I can swept away my boredom by going to the mall with my aunt. I went to Kinokuniya to buy Popteen magazine October issue. But it isn't there yet. So I bought this KERA September issue.

I kinda like lolita fashion. No no, not the hardcore one. I just love soft punk XD Yup. I love skulls too.

Oh yeah, I learn to use make up already. Well, I'm not really good. And I should buy more eyeshadows since the only one I have is blue color.

Humm... I want purple streaks highlight for my hair.

2008-10-12T14:03:00.000+09:00

I'm bored.

2008-10-11T18:40:00.002+09:00

I went to watch Disney Three Classic Fairy Tales today. It's quite... BORING. Maybe because I already know about the stories and how it ends. Anyway, I'm going with my little cousins. They loved it.

I've been playing Everyday and Can't Get Back over and over again. I can't wait for the PVs. I hope the PV of Can't Get Back will be awesome. I'm also saving my money to buy Seventh Ave. Live Tour DVD.

Oh yeah... Anyone going to HK this December? Please tell if you do! I need someone to help me to buy Lead Upturn 2008. You know their song 'Baby what turns you on'? I'm so dead wanna see how the live is!

2008-10-09T21:49:00.002+09:00

Currently, I'm watching Code Geass. This anime is super cool. It's really cool to sweep away my boredom.

Anyway, I heard some news that is really making me unhappy since yesterday. But I can't and shouldn't write it here. *sigh*

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I'm going crazy. X_x Oh God... Please tell me everything that I heard is SO UNTRUE.

I'm off.

2008-10-08T14:53:00.002+09:00

I'm back from Bandung. Did I mention I'm going to Bandung for my holiday? O_o Sorry if I didn't ^^; I just got back last night. When I got home, I quickly unpacking my stuffs and went online.

Yes! I'm searching about w-inds. in Asia Song Festival. And I watched the whole clip my friend sent to me. Thanks sharon-san!

I LOVE BOTH EVERYDAY AND CAN'T GET BACK. Everyday is a ballad song and Can't Get Back is quite catchy. And now it's hard for me to decide which limited version I should buy. Plus, Seventh Ave. Live DVD is confirmed will be release on 17th December (Ryuichi's b'day!).

This year live tour DVD is kinda special. It comes with 3 DVDs. 1st DVD is about their live tour in Budokan. 2nd is about their documentary. And the 3rd is about their final show in Yoyogi Park and not to forget their performances of their new single, Everyday and Can't Get Back.

And I must buy this one!

2008-09-29T01:07:00.002+09:00

I'm been listening to Miley Cyrus' song '7 things'. Like since 30 minutes ago...

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care and now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do

YOU MAKE ME LOVE YOU

Don't get me wrong, he's not cheating on me. But other than that, most of the lyrics are TRUE.

2008-09-27T21:44:00.002+09:00

Orenji nano chromatic, GETZ! XD

Yup. I went to the mall today with my aunt and bought this orange thingy. Ahh~ I'm so excited and happy XD It was playing Hanamuke PV when I took the picture. It's pretty slim.

Oh yeah. I nearly lose my cell phone. The story is... I was going to the toilet and was holding my cell phone. Because I can't hold it anymore, I placed my cell phone on the tissue box instead put it into my bag. And when I leave, I FORGOT TO TAKE IT.

So when we were walking around, I realized that I forgot about it. So I rushed back again as fast as I can. Luckily, thank God. There're still good people in this world. The cleaning service hold it back for me. OMG~ Thank God. I was thanking that person like hell.

Phew.

2008-09-27T01:16:00.004+09:00

Minutes after midnight.

I'M SUPER BORED.

Owh yeah. News about w-inds. 25th single. It will be in 3 versions. (Oh please don't be like Johnnys or DBSK selling so many versions TT^TT) I will be broke to death. The 1st version is with Everyday PV, 2nd version with Can't get back PV, and then regular version.

Oops, before that, there're 2 main songs in this single. Maybe because this is the first single for this year so they put 2 main songs which called 'Everyday' and 'Can't get back'. So there... 3 versions. *dies*

Since my money is not that much to buy three of them, or even two. I decided to choose which one between these 2 songs that I like. If I like 'Everyday' I will buy the version with 'Everyday' PV in it. And same goes to 'Can't get back'.

They sang those songs in their final tour last 23rd September. Geez, lucky fans to listen to it for the first time. And... I forgot to mention that Ryuichi got injured when they was rehearsal for the final show. But he's recovering now and did a great job in the concert.

GOOD JOB, Ryuichi-kun!

2008-09-25T23:52:00.002+09:00

Hoammm..

FINALLY HOLIDAY!!! XD

Yes. I will have 2 weeks holiday starting tomorrow. I'm going to Bandung next Wednesday! XD Fei-chan~ You got the news? XP

And... There's this bug... I don't know what its called in English. But it really likes to bugging around lights. So I found this annoying bug IN MY ROOM O_O *dies*

I HATE BUGS!

Seriously and there're so MANY of them. I was freaking out so I called the maid to take care of it. Damn it. Just where did it come from?! >_<;;

2008-09-23T21:11:00.002+09:00

Happy b'day to Shinya~!!!

My head hurts =_= I had pretty much headache before too. I wonder if this because my month period will be coming soon. Argh~ I forgot when is my last period. X_x

My univ life is good so far. I will have a test for Japanese next Thursday. Wish me luck!

I miss mommy and daddy TT^TT

2008-09-21T22:37:00.002+09:00

I want this orange thingy! It's the new iPod nano chromatic. It suits my orange JBL speaker too XD

2008-09-19T21:45:00.002+09:00

Anyone knows where I can watch Shugo Chara episode 48 with subs online?

I can't find any in Youtube TT^TT Yeah, I've been addicted to this anime. My favourite character is Hoshina Utau which cast by Nana Mizuki. I love Nana's songs Meikyuu Butterfly and Black Diamond. And now I'm listening to it.

I'm staying home the whole day today. I planned to watch a movie with my boyfriend tomorrow. I haven't watch Hell Boy =_=+

Net Friday I will have holiday until October 10th. I planned to go to Bandung with my cousin. Can't wait for it!

2008-09-18T21:15:00.002+09:00

I bought this frame yesterday XP I really need some stuff to decorate this plain room.

Okay. The continuation of my last post about my aunt. Last night when she came back from work, she called me to her room. I know I will get another lecture again. But unexpectectly, she's nice. She said she appreaciate my honesty. But she's still not agree about me going to a boy's place alone.

She said she will allow me to hang out with friends and my boyfriend every week. Just don't go to a boy's place alone. Oh well, as long as I can still hang out.

Really, staying at home is really boring. Tomorrow I have no class.

2008-09-17T21:11:00.002+09:00

I'm digging my own grave.

How? Well, the story is last Monday I went to my boyfriend's dormitory. My class started at 1pm and I got nothing to do at home. And since my boyfriend also doesn't have class that day. So I went there to play.

So this morning before I go to my campus, my aunt asked me where I was last Monday I answered her boldly I went to my boyfriend's dormitory. Then she went like, "You went to a boy's dormitory all alone?!"

Well, I told my mother about it and she's completely okay with it. And I will feel really bad if I lie to my aunt. So I just tell her the truth. But I didn't expect her to react like that. She called my mom and said I shouldn't go to a boy's place alone. How will people react if they see that?

I mean, hello... I'm trying to be honest okay. I'm telling her the truth, not a lie. Why can't she appreciate that? Besides, can't she have any faith? It's not like we do anything wrong. I understand completely how to protect myself. *sigh*

I got lectured several times by my grandmother too. I can't stand it but I should. This morning I also got lectured. It's really damn annoying since it's still morning.

2008-09-14T22:38:00.002+09:00

I just want to always be able to talk to him. So whenever and wherever, I always want to know what he is doing. It's not that I'm afraid him to cheat on me. No that's not it. I just want to always hear everything from him.

But is he feeling that way towards me too? Is it bother him a lot? I feel lonely easily when he's not around. We've been in a long distance relationship before. It's difficult for us to see each other. And now we're in the same city, we also difficult to meet at each other too.

I want to be always by his side. So then he won't take his eyes away from me.

2008-09-12T23:20:00.003+09:00

Well, maybe I'm not that good person at all. *sigh*

I feel jealous to my own boyfriend and friends. So jealous of how free they are. Why are my parents so overprotective and not letting me stay on my own? I spent today in this room, sitting in front of my laptop, reading manga... I'm super bored.

My boyfriend is going out with his friends now. And tomorrow, maybe he's going to the amusement park too if we don't go out. Haih... If only I didn't live here, I must be the one who is going out with him.

I know it's not his fault. But I feel sad and angry. Why can't I get freedom like everyone else?

I hate this.